so I am following
THIS training plan. i love hal. hal is my pal. hee, hee.
seriously, though. me and hal go way back. back to when i was 19 and i had been running the standard 6 miles/day for oh, 4 years or so. loved a good trail run back then but had never really raced. then i decided to run a marathon. as a child & teen I was always in excellent shape. super athletic thanks to playing sports my whole life. i took up running when i was a teenager as a way to stay in shape for my winter sports and do better on the soccer field. i also loved to bike, walked a couple miles to school every day for a few years, swam, rock-climbed, and played rec volleyball. so when i was 19 and got talked into (another story for another day) running this marathon, i did so with very little training. like, only the athletic endeavors i had under my belt.
i finished. yes ma'am i did. in 5:47. i was at the back of the pack the entire way, running (and sometimes walking) with a party group. we had a small fire engine with us, and let's just say we looked more like a parade than we did a race. there were beads, shot glasses, and lots & lots of crazies! it was a great time. but not something i tout as a huge running accomplishment. i mean, basically, i partied my way to the finish line. it was a joke.
in the years that followed that first experience, i noticed something about myself.
a) i loved the community aspect of running big races
b) i loved the race atmosphere both before, during, and after races
c) i never wanted to finish at the BACK of the pack again.
so i knew i wanted to do this more often, but in order to avoid being at the back, i would need to train. enter hal. he was my inspiration.
fast forward several years and several races, none of which included anything other than a 5k, later. i was my husband's training partner back when we were dating while he trained for his first marathon. it was inspiring, but i honestly didn't think i could do it. so in a typical self-defeatest way, i quit. i quit running while we were engaged. then we got married and i got pregnant.
i have never really, REALLY gone back to running the way i have always wanted to. i have walk/jogged a few 5ks and 2 half marathons since my kids were born. i have planned on training for and running a half and then hopefully a full marathon. in fact, 2 years ago, before i turned 30 i had grand plans to do just that. then they sort of fizzled and died. the feelings of failure at having given up, combined with feeling pretty bad physically from several miscarriages has kept me away for some time.
last year when i was working, i walked 2.5 miles on my lunch break 4 times a week. i was gearing up to train for the half marathon in april in st. louis. then my husband announced he was going to train for the marathon at the same time. well, that just wouldn't work in our family, so i sacrificed my training so that he could train. (he ended up backing out from the race, but that's another story for another day) then another miscarriage and the big move from missouri to arizona this summer had me taking more time off of working out.
which brings me to the present moment. and this training plan. i feel as though i am starting from scratch, even though i have been "a runner" for more than half my life. i am asking some pretty steep things of the Lord this time around, emotionally & spiritually. i am asking for some healing in my self-defeatest areas, and for the gift of discipline. i am also asking for my anger to be redeemed and healed. see?? it's a tall order, i know. that is where the name of my blog comes in. i am running to the Lord.
so i am training for a 5k with a 13.1 in mind for next year. training for the 5k is going to lay the foundation that i need in order to train for an complete the half marathon next year. after that...who knows. for now, i am hoping to enjoy the journey, and just put one foot in front of the other.